Tired of the Gospel?

Tired is often used in my daily vocabulary. I don't know if the word "no" is used as often as it should be.

Ministry fills most of my breaths and conversations, most of my seconds and minutes, which has always been my dream.

Yet, I'm always tired.

Am I tired of the gospel?

No, quite the opposite.

I'm tired from the gospel.

My tiredness is not wasted, it is the fruit of a day that was spent for the glory of Jesus.

Am I a saint because of it?

Quite the opposite again... my weakness is especially exposed in ministry. It is a mirror that portrays my ugliness so that Christ can mold me and shape me.

Ministry shows me how big of a sinner I am but it also shows me how much greater a God I serve.

I am so very tired from the gospel, and I would not have it any other way. I want every waking moment of every day to be spent for Christ, and if I am not tired then I hope to push more, to fall into His glory more, to praise Him all the more.

For we should never tire of the gospel, but we should be tired from it. 

Where You are, there I'll be

Comfort has surrounded me, 

it has followed me through many places in my life always beckoning me 

to give into its pleasures and apathy.

Yet, God is rapidly surrounding me with new places where comfort cannot reach.

This is beautiful, this is good, and this is frightening.

This is where He resides.

Following Yeshua is something that comfort doesn't connect with,  because his path is radical and requires faith.

Comfort hates faith.

Where He is, is where I'll be.

Those places are filled with father-less parents and broken families.

He is in the places that seem unsafe or bound to evil because of the lack of Light and Truth.

Jesus resides in the places of inadequacy because His name is made greater.

His places are also filled with snippets of Grace that abound in glorious ways because comfort isn't holding Grace back.

My life is filled with newness and abundance, inadequacy and discomfort, but it is where He is.

So that's where I'll be.